A poem on grief and loss

When your body can’t unknow a baby it carried.

When your mind can’t unknow a dream it held.

When your heart can’t unknow the voice of that sweet friend.

When you can’t unknow the person you used to be and you wonder if you’ll ever get her back.

When the news you just received makes the room spin around you and you think it might never stop. 

When you’ve been holding your breath for so long you’re not sure if you’ll ever breathe deeply again.

When the yearning for answers comes from a depth within you that you never knew existed. 

Lift your head my child. Lock eyes with mine as I tell you something, He speaks over me. This is hard. But you will be ok and you are not alone.

Do you know that when you hear the crickets it’s my heart beating for you?

Don’t you know that every tear you cry, I place in a bottle so you know how much your hurting heart matters?

Do you know that I have made the colors of the sunset so beautiful so that you would be reminded that I will never let the darkness close in on you?

Do you know I placed the soft grass under your feet so that you would feel held? 

Get up my child.  I’m in the business of restoring and redeeming.

The breeze you feel is my gentle kiss on your face. 

I have set the angels to gently sing over you to remind you that you are worthy, and lovable, and so capable of beauty. Let their wings nourish your flame within when it feels like it’s dim and slipping away. 

Because I know you. Even when you feel you can’t unknow the pain. 

I have new life, new dreams, and a refined you waiting around the corner. 

I will send you my love in ways and messages you least expect. Please don’t stop watching and waiting.

And lastly, know this my child. You will be held, until you feel whole again. 

-Sarah Fleming